Arising as an anglo-american male born 07/20/1952 as a collection of natural elements, inspired to explore the now extinct north woodlands of New Jersey as a child. A U.S. Army draftee, the last number selected in the last induction in America. Serving as driver, supply clerk,armorer for 3 years until honorably discharged. The proud father of two terrific young adults. Amicably divorced from their mom after 26 years. Always careful, I have been healthy and strong, rarely sick or depressed. A landscape gardener, a nature sculptor, an avid landscape photographer, self employed and self motivated. Artistic and realistic, I still follow Scout code to do my best and to be of service to all. I play healing flutes and hand drums, practice Tai Chi, Qi Gong and Yoga. I try to find time to enjoy sea kayak touring, hiking, biking, archery and mountain climbing. I have previous volunteer experience with physical therapy, mentoring and trail building. I follow a Taoist philosophy from Christian roots, mixed with individual spirituality. I have an Associate Degree in Passive Solar Energy Design and Construction and am certified in computer hardware and networking. I have myriad skills in irrigation, planting, service, hardscaping and transportation. I love to cook and bake imaginatively, usually am tidy and respectful, co-operative as well as independent. I am considered to be honest, reliable and energetic. I wish to wander the hills and forests of this beautiful planet, being of service to those aware of the great needs of Mother Nature, finding my way without much planing as I go. I have desire and energy but little in the way of financial resources. Time, skills and energy are what I have to spend as currency, and I spend them freely. I've been groomed by Mother Nature for this path, the question is just where, and with whom to express it.

I would like to share something of my personal experiences with those of you who might care to listen. I seem to have a strong inclination to share everything with anyone and run into frequent troubles with how I am perceived. I am often criticized as arrogant, or as ‘holier than thou’. As one who looks down from on high and takes pity on the struggling individuals around me. As someone who thinks he has the answers. This perception causes me great distress for it arises frequently in those that I am offering assistance or wisdom too. It arises within the other and I have no magic buttons to prevent its occurrences. I often try to adjust my delivery and lower my sense of self as much as possible for their comfort but even that can be miss-interpreted as high and mighty. I could shut up and keep what I’ve learned to myself, but then my self gets disappointed in myself for not being brave enough to shine on for others. This is quite troubling when I know, inside myself, that I am just holy shit and not even very good at being that. Everything I am and have, I have graciously been given by nature and others and I am eternally grateful and constantly trying to pay back this enormous debt of gratitude that I carry as my being. I treasure what I have been taught to the extent that it is my sacred duty to learn it and share it with whatever arises. I do not seek ways to show it off but to share it gladly. I am quite content to take a back seat and practice silence whenever I can. But also prepared to offer whatever I have managed to keep and remember. I must have needed a lot of teachers to direct me, for everyone I’ve come across has contributed to this storehouse, whether in book, song or direct contact. I have been loved by so many, that I can do no less than share it all freely for that gives purpose to why they shared it with me. I do not sit here in perfection and dole out pity or judgment or pithy sayings to others. I feel the pain, wish to help and can relate. I have seen many common issues before in the lives of friends and loved ones. I suffer myself with more than one constant reminder of my own. Anyone who knows personally the discomfort of Psoriasis, the never ending itching, scaling and embarrassment that occurs, and the battle to ignore it and accept it that rages 24 hours a day, will know what I mean. I’ve put up with it for over 30 years with little relief. And it may be a silly little thing to those of you with a spectrum of other issues to deal with, but to me it is one of my teachers. Me? Perfection? With my host of problems and issues? I don’t think so….crediting myself for that which I am...? Not likely…perhaps because I am so full of the contributions of others I may seem full of myself. I can only accept that that is what arises in others so they may learn what is needed. It is saddening and disturbing and I see that arising and must work on it. I can not stop offering what I’ve been given to sooth my own discomfort. I can keep learning new wisdom and fresh ways to offer it as I share myself in each moment, and I think I have improved in my delivery, but the messages often prick people and tick them off. That I should feel I know the light that they have not embraced will forever be refuted and perhaps that is what will inspire me to continue spreading what I have learned. To me being judged in this way for a moment is a hundred times harder than living with my psoriasis all day long. Perhaps it is my master lesson, or maybe it leads to a larger one yet. Whatever… I humbly ask your indulgence when I sound knowing, for I am only pursuing the question of me and sharing what I learn along the way from you……

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